31 Days….

A few weeks ago, I stumbled upon a Facebook post about a 31 Day Writing Challenge for bloggers.  Blogger?  Not yet, but planning/wanting/procrastinating to become one.  I guess I felt the need to go through ‘trial by fire’ so I signed up!  Then I had to come up with a topic, then a ‘button’, then ‘link up’.  I’m still figuring out 2 of the 3 of those and second, third, millionth time guessing my topic and if I can truly write anything good, meaningful, encouraging about it for 31 DAYS!!!

But I’ve really been struggling in two areas of my life (well…there’s 2 more glaring than the others in the chaos and crazy that is me!) and I know that God is making it clear that I need to change in these areas: distractions and perfectionism. How do I know this?  Maybe picking up my phone while I’m driving, looking at FB while I’m (ahem) in the ‘lavatory’ or making one of my kids cry because ‘he just wanted me to say he did a good job’ (instead of pointing out the errors in the presentation he had made)  Seriously… Lord, help me.  I’m a mess.  The chaos and crazy….I make a lot of it myself.  Is it easy to blame it on my amazing, loud, crazy, precious, boys I love so hard?  Oh, yes it is!  But when God shines His light into my life, my heart, He shows me a LOT of the chaos and crazy is of my own making. And the chaos and the crazy that I leave in my wake  brings  no meaning, joy or purpose with it.  It robs me and those I love of it.  AND THAT HAS TO CHANGE.

So here I go…..going to attack the chaos and crazy of my DISTRACTIONS AND PERFECTION INFECTION.  And you know what He whispered to me the other day….Letting Go…that’s what this 31 day journey is going to be all about.  Letting Go…of the distractions and the perfection infection.  And I hope and pray that as I let go, I will shed some of the chaos and the crazy, so I can focus more and more on the meaning, joy and purpose of my life.  Because the meaning, joy and purpose God has blessed me with is pretty crazy awesome.

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